Thoughts on a Friday

tumblr_p6n9q26T5q1tcqhjho2_r1_540
Rope climbing competition, 1928
  • All I smell is the perfume I sprayed on my wrist while I was in Sephora today.
  • Can’t say that I’m crazy about it.
  • But what can one do when faced with so many perfume options? Other than spray your wrist, I mean.
  • I can’t remember who it was by, but I’m thinking it was Dior.
  • In Bloom, maybe?
  • It’s a little too floral-y and sweet for my taste.
  • In fact, it smells like something my sister would wear.
  • I wish I had a signature perfume.
  • But I have no idea what it is.
  • It takes experimentation, I guess, and body chemistry.
  • Guys out there, is it any easier when trying cologne?
  • Probably.
  • *snorts in derision*
  • This is what happens when you just want to smell nice.
  • I think it’s time to start wearing cologne.
  • Then watch with a creepy smile on my face as I confuse the heck out of everyone.
  • I watched Jumanji: Welcome to the Jungle the other day,¬†and it lived up to every one of my expectations.
  • I was not disappointed.
  • I was only slightly apprehensive about it because it was coming off of the original Jumanji movie, but…. It was really good?
  • Plus they paid tribute to Robin Williams, and that made me happy and sad at the same time.
  • But yeah, I enjoyed it.
  • It was funny, full of action and just… I can’t… Even.
  • Robin Williams ūüėĘ
  • And I found a new crush in Nick Jonas.
  • Oops.
  • I made a good choice.
  • I mean, a good choice for a movie!
  • I wish more movies out there were like that.
  • Nothing like a romp in the jungle.
  • Apparently it was filmed in Hawaii.
  • Well, then I guess I’m going to Hawaii.
  • If—aha, no, I mean¬†when—I make it there, I’m going to pretend as thought I’m in the show Lost¬†for my entire stay.
  • That’s just how it is.
  • Because I think of Hawaii, and then I think of Lost.
  • Smoke monster, aaah!
  • Aaaaand I just got a whiff of that perfume on my wrist.
  • But really.
  • I got more excited than I should have this morning when I heard that there would be a Star Wars tv series in the works.
  • It’s all too much for my nerves.
  • Shit, when did I become such a Star Wars freak?
  • Probably because of the most recent one.
  • Dammit.
  • My stream of consciousness is going great guns, and I think it’s because I’ve had too much coffee.
  • Makes for productive thinking.
  • Like coming to terms with the fact that Krispy Kreme now has a lemon-glazed doughnut.
  • Or is it donut?
  • Other than Hawaii, the one place I would like to be at this moment is in LA for the TCM film festival.
  • Don’t you @ me.
  • It’s all over my Twitter feed, and I just want to have a good time and bask in the Old Hollywood-kissed sun.
  • And maybe run into a famous celebrity.
  • Seasoned or new.
  • And eventually fling myself onto someone’s Star on Hollywood Boulevard.
  • I think my stream of consciousness has nearly run its course.
  • Unless you want to hear about my baby-related dreams.
  • No, you probably don’t.
  • It’s the weekend, I’m free.

Today’s musical piece is from… You guessed it! Because it gave me all the feels of the original movie.

Image via Yesterday’s Print

Advertisements

Be kind

IMG_0555

It was a rough start to the week in our city. There are no words I can easily express to describe what everyone has been feeling these last few days, other than sad. Just really, really sad.

It is a tragic time for Toronto–with lives lost and others injured on account of one individual. We have seen such incidents played out in other cities around the world, and while it was something we knew we were not immune to (fortunate as we have been), it came as a devastating shock never the less.

Grief is a personal and, at times, lonely thing. However, I’ve seen time and time again that in tragedies like this, that it brings people together. In Toronto, it is no exception. In fact, we’ve come together more as a city than we have in quite some time.

If there’s one thing I’ve heard more often than not since this past Monday, it has been one simple thing: to be kind to one another. In the hubbub of our busy lives, it’s easy to get wrapped up in our own issues. But the act of kindness and being considerate towards others can make a remarkable difference, and since Monday, I’ve seen plenty of it around Toronto.

Lastly, I just wanted to say how proud I am of this city, and how happy and fortunate I am to call it home. ¬†This incident has changed us, but will certainly not define us.¬†The journey to recovery and closure won’t be easy, but at least we’ll going through it together.

 

 

Wednesday thought dump

tumblr_p6f6390C9t1tcqhjho1_540.png

  • I could have sworn I saw fire works.
  • God, that song is catchy.
  • Between this song and various songs from Jesus Christ Superstar, they have been on repeat in my head for weeks now.
  • They’re all good songs, but come on!
  • By the way, NBC’s JCS¬†was on Sunday!
  • I’m sad that I missed it, I was at my family’s Easter dinner.
  • Could we start again, please?
  • I only caught the tale end of it, but it looked like it was a pretty good performance.
  • John Legend, aaaah!
  • The way that musical holds up is a testament (pun sort of intended?) to how well it was written.
  • I still love Norm Jewison’s film version.
  • Ted Neely.
  • What a guy! What a set of pipes!
  • For the record, JCS has been in my head since before December.
  • Habits.
  • This article has me thinking about habits.
  • And keeping them.
  • All I want is to watch Star Wars from beginning to end.
  • As if I didn’t already do so this past weekend.
  • And it had made me desperate for Episode IX to come out.
  • This is bad.
  • It’s still two years away!
  • The only thing that will keep me from breaking is the new Han Solo movie.
  • That’s it. I’m obsessed.
  • Help. Me.
  • It’s super windy outside.
  • Wind: it gets everywhere.
  • And gets things everywhere.
  • At least it’s sunny.
  • Because a wind and rain combination is not fun whatsoever.
  • I want something, but I don’t know what.
  • There’s more to life than that. Don’t ask me what.
  • Dammit, now I’m thinking of the Matchmaker song from Fiddler on the Roof.
  • What is this?
  • Take note of how the early 1970s went far out on the religious themed musicals.
  • Think Fiddler, JCS, Godspell
  • Any others that I’m missing?
  • Oh, and Joseph and the Amazing Technicolour Dream Coat.
  • Which I’ve never seen.
  • Anyway, I find that interesting.
  • Norman Jewison directed both Fiddler and JCS.
  • JCS would be my top pick.
  • Sometimes I wish I could sing, but at the same time, thank fuck that I can’t.
  • I love the Onion.
  • So very much.
  • Happy Wednesday, everyone.

 

Image from here

A few thoughts I had while watching the film, ‘Call me by Your Name’ (and may contain spoilers)

mw-fv566_callme_20171003162513_zh

  • You know sometimes when you watch a film’s opening credits and you know almost immediately that you’re going to like it? That was such the experience for me.
  • Complete with rapid piano music!
  • The main character, Elio, has the life I wish I can only wish I had when I was a teen.
  • He speaks both French and Italian, he’s gifted in music, and is living his best life in the Italian countryside with his parents.
  • What is this life and where can I sign up for it??!
  • No matter what decade it takes place in, Italy will always be ridiculously beautiful.
  • Lots of scenery porn (amongst other types?), which didn’t help my frustration that I haven’t been back to Italy yet.
  • Elio’s Dad gives me major Robin Williams from Goodwill Hunting vibes with his beard.
  • Meanwhile, Timothy Chalemet (aka Elio) gave me Gilbert Blythe vibes. Which would be ok, if he weren’t six years my junior.
  • What eighties’ music! What clothing! What shoes!
  • Armie’s awkward eighties’ dancing kills me, and I’m all here for it.
  • Then again, so does Elio’s, who’s dancing is by far more slick.
  • I have to look up that song.
  • Cute pair, they make.
  • Weirdly enough, Armie’s clothing made him seem older than he was.
  • Mmm, nothing like peaches right off the vine.
  • But… Ah… Hold on…
  • OH MY GOD ELIO WHAT ARE YOU DOING???!
  • I’m both grossed out and impressed.
  • After this I’ll never think of a peach the same way again.
  • Ever.
  • It makes me sad that they (like many others) had to be so clandestine about their feelings for one another.
  • However, Elio’s dad is a shining beacon of hope in an unforgiving world.
  • “Just remember, our hearts and our bodies are given to us only once. And before you know it, your heart is worn out, and, as for your body, there comes a point when no one looks at it, much less wants to come near it. Right now, there’s sorrow, pain. Don’t kill it and with it the joy you’ve felt.”
  • Still…. Italy.
  • And still a beautiful movie.

Image from here

Love, dating, or lack of it: an alternative millennial story

echo-palidins-me-is-single-clickbait-is-he-cheating-on-5684885.png

Here’s a confession for you: I’m in my (very) late 20s… And I’ve never dated. I’ve never been on a date. I’ve never been in a relationship. ¬†Those of you who know me are probably like, ‘well colour me shocked!’

I wish that I had some stories to share about my past experiences in love and heartbreak. To have them be funny, charming and full of bittersweet wisdom. But the truth is, I only have enough experience to make a few scribbles. The rest is still a blank chapter that’s yet to be filled.

I’ve been witness to friends and family members who have found love in their teens and 20s; they are either married, or very soon will be. ¬†If they don’t have a boyfriend/girlfriend yet, they probably will have one soon.

And then, there’s me: The perma-single. Forever the third wheel, forever showing up to family functions with no partner to smugly introduce. So single, in fact, that no one even bothers asking me if I’m seeing anyone. (I should probably be relieved.)

I should note that being single doesn’t necessarily bother me. I’ve been on my own for a good quarter of a century, and I’ve gotten this far without a SO just fine. I like that I have this time to learn about myself and to do the things I enjoy most, without compromising.

That being said, when you get this far with nothing more than a peck on the cheek*, and you see everyone paired up and happy (for the most part), you feel¬†as though you’ve been missing out on something special. (That, and the romantic notions you were raised on as a kid have failed you.)

I could easily justify this based on my personality: at first glance I’m somewhat reserved, quiet, and not always willing to make the first move. (i.e.: A cute guy looks my way, and I…. turn to mush.) It’s followed me thorough high school, and despite having grown up since then, somewhere inside me that shy high school version of myself still lingers.

Putting oneself out there is tough; especially in this day and age, when everything is generally done through a screen; it’s only made worse when you are made to post appealing pictures of yourself and have to come up with cutesy/witty bios.

Which brings me to the online dating/phone dating apps: Tinder, Bumble, and Hinge, to name a few. I’ve never tried Hinge. Tinder I find trashy. As for Bumble, that’s where the woman gets to make the first move. It is filled with beautiful (and at times, shirtless) fellows who tend to write the same descriptions in their bios. I could dedicate a whole post to guys I come across on Bumble:¬†‘spider killer’. ‘Entrepreneur’. ‘Looking for the one.’¬†‘Sports, travel and beer.’¬†¬†And my favourite–‘Baby in the photo is my niece/nephew’.¬†¬†Phew, for a second I thought it was actually yours!¬†

I have a love-hate relationship with Bumble. You swipe right, send out a friendly ‘hey!’ and if you’re lucky, you’ll get a response. When I don’t get responses after a few tries, that’s when I’m ready to throw in the towel. F*** this!¬†This is app is stupid!¬†I think. And then, no sooner than I delete it from my phone, I start to think, maybe I should give it another go?¬†Ugh.

But really, I think it comes down to a matter of being in the right place and the right time. And right now–in my mind, at least–the timing still isn’t… Right. There are things I still need to sort out, both personally and externally, and those things have to be done on my own. That’s where my special ‘Saturn Return’ might come in handy!

Would I like to meet someone? Definitely. Will it happen through a dating app? I kind of hope not, but if it happens to work out, then I’ll be damned. Whatever the results may be, I trust that the Universe knows what its doing, and has my back.

In the words of Forrest Gump, “I don’t know if we have a destiny, or if we’re all just floatin’ around accidental-like on a breeze, but I think maybe it’s both. Maybe both is happenin’ at the same time.”

Having a limited dating/relationship experience should not make anyone feel less than adequate, and that’s why I chose to write about my own experience–or the lack of it!

And that’s all I got to say bout’ that.

giphy.gif

 

*That peck on the cheek was a special something from an Italian boy I met for about five seconds while on a school trip in Italy. I was sixteen, and he wasn’t even that cute, but it MADE MY LIFE.

 

Top image from here, Forrest Gump GIF via GIPHY

Thursday thoughts

tumblr_ozws2nJhbl1tcqhjho1_540.png
Eating mulberries in Shakespeare’s garden, Stratford-Upon-Avon, 1928
  • And the revelations keep on coming.
  • Every morning when I turn on the news, I find myself thinking, “who’s next?”
  • At this point, it could be anyone.
  • It’s baffling.
  • Although not necessarily surprising?
  • The Onion is having a field day with all these emerging allegations.
  • It’s also kind of upsetting, especially when it’s a person who you thought was decent.
  • Still waiting for Donald Trump’s turn.
  • That guy…
  • Iced Peppermint Mocha dreams fulfilled as of this week.
  • And the week before.
  • Chocolatey, minty goodness.
  • Although not enough whipped cream on my last to satisfy me.
  • But oh well!
  • If that doesn’t suffice, a Krispy Kreme donut will.
  • To have even half of one would be dangerous.
  • Oops, too late.
  • Dangerously delicious.
  • I hate the word delicious.
  • Especially when used to describe something that is not food.
  • Never, ever do that in my presence.
  • It’s the end of November.
  • What?…. Where did it go…??
  • It was the end of Halloween, and now it’s not.
  • Sad!
  • But then again, the Month of Merry will be upon us.
  • Have you ever heard of a Return to Saturn?
  • Unless you’re a real astrology buff, the answer is likely no.
  • I’d never heard of it before either… Until last week or so.
  • Apparently it happens. Every 29.5 years or so, the planet Saturn returns to the astrological house that you were born into and stirs up enough personal shit to make it feel as if you’re going through puberty again.
  • If you’re turning 29 within the next year, like I am, it’s fast approaching.
  • Timing is everything, isn’t it?
  • All I had to do was a bit of research as to when mine is due, and OH GOD IT’S RETURNING THIS DECEMBER.
  • My ass is going to be kicked by an invisible astrological entity.
  • For two years.
  • But perhaps some good will come out of it.
  • Hey, James Cameron’s Titanic turned twenty this month!
  • Questions still linger about that movie.
  • Namely, why Rose wasn’t able to make room for Jack on that floating door.
  • Or better yet…. Did Rose actually die at the end of the movie?
  • Likely yes, but that’s been up for debate.
  • It’s still a shame she dropped the necklace into the ocean.
  • That thing was worth a fortune, dammit!
  • You know what also came out this month in 1942?
  • Casablanca.
  • Ingrid Bergman was luminous.
  • And on that note, I sign off!
  • But not before I leave you with this other Journey song I’ve been listening to lately.
  • There’s no cheesy video to accompany it, as far as I know, but it doesn’t need it.
  • Thank goodness.

 

Top image from here

Thoughts on a Friday

IMG_0383.jpg

  • My favourite time of the year is hanging on a bit longer.
  • I miss doing these on Fridays.
  • So much more interesting than on Tuesdays.
  • These are the days nostalgia is made of.
  • Next time someone suspends Donald Trump’s Twitter account, I hope it’s permanent.
  • One can dream.
  • I never knew I needed a Noirvember nickname until now.
  • You may now refer to me as Margot Savage until December 1st.
  • *Seductively takes a long draw on a non-existent cigarette*
  • *coughs*
  • I thought about doing Nanowrimo this year….
  • …. But decided not to.
  • I started with 600 or so words, but then I lost motivation.
  • I already have three (unfinished) stories on the go.
  • Lost in the sands of Nanowrimo past.
  • I better start writing… Something.
  • Now that Halloween is over, I’m waiting impatiently for those terrible Christmas tv specials to start.
  • Not until after Remembrance Day, which is acceptable.
  • I don’t know why, but I’m really looking forward to seeing them on tv again.
  • Even when they’re overly saccharine, over the top Christmas-y, and filled with too-beautiful-to-be-true people who just can’t seem to get their shit together in their love lives.
  • L’amour, l’amour.
  • It’s getting cold.
  • To state the obvious.
  • Unless you’re in Australia, where it is no doubt blissfully warm.
  • Lucky you.
  • G’day.
  • No fair, it’s Saturday tomorrow.
  • I can’t sleep in.
  • Time change is on Sunday and I can’t do much sleeping in then either.
  • Because, work.
  • I really want a new camera.
  • And I really want to visit Los Angeles.
  • This has been brewing for some time.
  • SO much want, and not enough buy.
  • So I will end things here, on a Girl Hunt Ballet note.
  • Since I can’t find any decent music.
  • So, this will do!
  • Be good and enjoy the weekend, peeps.